I was reading through the blogs on the right and I had an interesting thought.
The S.O. and I have never hung out with each other
because we missed each other.

Let me explain.

I asked my S.O. out.
This would have been the FIRST time
I'd ever done something like that.
He was a sweet, charming, wildly charismatic, good looking guy.
And I thought to myself, "What the hell, the worst he can do is say no?"
That was a first for me.
Apparently I don't handle rejection well.
I was shocked when he said he'd like to go out with me.
I refrained from asking "Why!?"
And acted cool about when the date would be.
It was only after the phone call did I get nervous.

Ironic huh?

We started seeing each other.
At first, once a week, then twice a week, then 7 out of 7 days a week (this took a few months).
Every time I went to see him, I said in my head, "If he rejects you now, it's no big deal, this is the first time you've ever asked someone out."
Every time I'd do that.
I'd only call or go over there if I "happened to be on the way home" or "could you do me a favor?" the list goes on and on...
In other words, if I did not have a reason ready for why I was calling or stopping by, I did not do it.
I think I did this because it was always something I could say if he rejected me.
S.O.:"Q.S.W. I dont' think we should see each other."
Q.S.W.: "I understand, I was just stopping by because you have my cd, I'll talk to you later" There was a long list of things I could say if that situation came up.

Reason # 45: (my favorite) "I'm calling because someone has egged your car."

After realizing I subconsciously did this, I started thinking about my S.O. and I realized he did the same thing.

Reason # 29: (his favorite) "Let's go out together, you know you want to be seen with the long lost sixth member of Menudo"

Never is there a time where he says, "Hey I haven't seen you in 48 hours, wanna hang out?" and Never is there a time where I say, "Hey I really missed you while I was gone, let's hang out."

I just thought that was interesting, I've never done that before.

Reason # 100: "How are my fish doing? Still all alive?"