What stays in Las Vegas...

My S.O. is currently on his way to Las Vegas.
I am currently in Michigan.
Thursday we spent all evening together.
Just him and I.
Our last night together for a week.

It ended with him giving me directions for taking care of his fish
for a week.
And me apologizing for freaking out about visiting his parents,
And telling him I'd like to sometime.
Maybe that was too good of an ending.
Or maybe too good of an ending for me.
Maybe he feels too commited.
I know I did at one point.

Friday evening, after getting home from the bars.
My S.O. decided to write me an e-mail.
It was a test.
Whether he knew it or not.
At this point he was probably tipsy.
He had been hit on twice by gay men.
And the only girl that talked to him that evening
was a hefty girl.
He probably felt too commited, and unattractive by
females.
I don't know,
I'm speculating.

But the e-mail I received was a test.
And it really saddens me because,
I thought we had ended on a good note.