The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat.
- Lily Tomlin
Recently, I've become pretty good friends with my brother's ex girlfriend. It sounds odd, but I can't help but like her. She hasn't said anything really nasty about my brother (just the normal, we-aren't-seeing-each-other-but-I'm-hurt-and-need-to-vent stuff) so I don't feel like I'm compromising my brother in any way. I've briefly talked to my brother about her and he seems to genuinely care about how she is, so I don't think he's mad that I'm hanging out with her.
What I find hard, is actually watching what he does to her.
Now that I've gotten close to her, I feel sort of protective of her as well as my brother. And seeing my brother act in parties that all three of us are at makes me want to slap him. I know he's over her, but then I know she's still hurting. It's a frustrating situation I've put myself in. And just recently, much to my utter dismay, I found out that he made out with a girl while he was still in a relationship with her. That makes me sick. I've been hurt by unfaithful guys so often, to think my brother is that type of guy, makes me want to beat him senseless.
What's worse, she doesn't know, and I won't tell her.
posted by sipwine at 12:47 PM
2 Comments:
lovely post - it must be a difficult situation to be in. it can be hard when you see someone you love in a new light - every story has two sides, it can be tricky when you know them both.
on an unrelated note, i really like your subtitle
"sticks and stones break my bones.. but tears don't leave any scars",
but here's a suggestion (feel free to use it if you'd like, discard it if you don't)
"sticks and stones will break my bones ... but tears will leave no scars"
the rhythm has just been tweaked a little bit, i think it's mre in keeping with your theme. anyway, good luck and keep blogging!
erin: It is tricky. I find myself torn between the two of them frequently. As for my blog subtitle, it's actually not a subtitle as much as lyrics from one of my favorite songs. So I like your suggestion, but I really don't want it to change because I like how it reminds me of that song. Thank you though! If you have any other suggestions I'd love to hear them!
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